The pencils are sharpened, books tucked neatly away in their "home" on the bookshelf, the printer is full with fresh crisp paper and the chairs are awaiting tiny hiney's to keep them warm. Physically I am prepared but mentally I'm beginning to feel the overwhelming sense of frigid fear of "can I really do this?" I feel as though I should appear on a commercial with an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other arguing with myself as to whether this is what's in their best interest. In my heart I KNOW I CAN...but society says NO. I don't understand why how my children learn is any one's business other than mine. There is always someone somewhere out there with an unwanted opinion that they are happily willing to share at the wrong time and I grin and bare it when actually I just wanna scream "WHAT'S IT TO YOU?" Then the wonderful subject of Socialization gets brought up and I begin to squrim as if I'm going to jump out of my skin and start to explain that there are things for my children to do, meanwhile in the back of my mind I'm wondering why I have to explain myself to everyone. If they haven't realized I have already action to boycott my school system then perhaps I should hang a huge brightly colored sign on my porch stating that my school is not a "bully free zone" as others have done this past school year only to have had their signs snatched out of their yards and the family's felt the heat from the publicity of the matter. So I think I'll pass just to keep unwanted eggs from hitting my house at 3 a.m. and scaring my kids and making for one ANGRY mom. For tonight I will say my prayers, Talk to God and let him take control.
Thanks for hearing me vent
HUGS
Hang in there Christina...after a few months you will develop some quick witted answers to peoples "inquiries" into your kids lives and you will have passed over into the confident world of cyber schooling! Sometimes the best answer is "I don't know!"---after all, how many teachers and admins in B&M school have ALL the answers for everything! We often tell people "We'll cross that bridge when we get there, but right now this works for us!" Of course, I have also been known to say this in response to the socialization question:
ReplyDelete"Aren't you concerned about socializing 0_0!" "Why yes, that's why we are teaching them at home!". Usually just makes people stop and think just long enough for me to scurry away giggling :0). Slow and steady wins this race.
Christina,
ReplyDeleteWe are in our second week here in Katy, Texas. There are so many things I have learned just in the last 7 days.
Prepare to print ALOT.
I will email you the daily lesson plan that another mom sent to me. It has been a God send.
Im about to post All the Things Ive learned in 7 Days on my blog. You can read the rest on there.
I cant wait to read all about your first day at school!
Patti